Flight

I have obtained permission from the great and mighty god-king Abin-Thul to travel far and wide. I will travel to the north first, through the lands of the Saru. Such a strange people, I think that this journey will be most healthy after... ...after recent events. I must find my way free of this, and I think to do so that I must leave my people behind. I will return, eventually...but first I must...I...I must learn, learn of other peoples, other ways. I know that it was necessary, that it should not have been in the first. I know that it was my fault, I cannot blame Abin-Thul or the priests for their commands.

However I fear that I must come to terms with this away from the others, away from...all this...my home. Perhaps when I return my life will be clear, my purpose understood...perhaps when I return I will be whole.

But then what is wholeness? Can I truly be whole? What does it matter, these are not questions I wish to ask. I leave tomorrow, one of the priests in Guangai has met a hunter of the Saru who sometimes comes into the city to trade. He has promised to introduce me to this hunter, then I will begin my journeys among them. I think that I will do all I can to learn the tongue of the Saru from this hunter, I do not even yet know his name. I am sure that Shin Pin will inform me of it when I meet him. I leave in the morning to begin my wanderings...I wonder what will come of this.